when I think about
how it felt to burrow against your chest
how it felt to sleep on your shoulder
how it felt to hold your hand
how it felt to lay in your arms.

All those words you've said
they've blurred over so much time
some I remember, some I don't
but those I did
did nothing more than to hurt me
so I forgot those too.

However simpler feelings remained
feelings of physical closeness
feelings of your eyes on me
feelings of your love for me
they stayed, and haunted me.

love and life go on
and I to do
yet
everytime I remember your hugs
how it had felt to have something,
someone strong to lay against
the gaping hole in my chest becomes hard to ignore
the emptiness of my hands, bereft of yours



I'll forget you. I know someday I will.
All of it. You and your mouth full of promises, your hands full of miracles and your eyes full of dreams.
I will forget them all.