New Moon

In Stephenie Meyer's "New Moon", this was how Edward described his life to Bella after he left her.

"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars-- points of light and reason...And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

When you left, this was what I felt.

When I lost you, I lost direction. Like Bella, family was the only thing holding me to sanity. It was like my life just blacked out, and I was left without a torch. I groped to find something to hold, and found nothing. I blundered around, trying to find light, and there was none. Those little twinkling lights from stars, how could they compare to your burning beauty?

I was alive, but barely. I walked on, searching, finding, denying the need to curl into a ball and cry. I fought away the pain, the sorrow, but there were always points when I would stop short and realize, there was nothing to find, there had never been more than this dreary, bleak existence I had succumbed into. There was no out. And that was when everything crashed in.

But my eyes are adjusting. I can see the stars now, I can find my way out. I know where to go, and what will be waiting. My eyesight are getting clearer, the stars are getting brighter. They would never be as bright as that meteor that shot across my sky, but they would hold me on to earth. They could provide me some measure of happiness, of contentment.

The loss will always leave a mark on me, but perhaps one day, someone would come along, and cover the scars gently with his hands.

Maybe someday, I would find a sun. Always there, never leaving, shining for me, and leading me on.